WRITING FEATURES

I've been trying to write all the features that I have on my mind, so when the opportunity comes, I'll have a variety of genres written. Well just as suspected, I got a call from a producer associate of mine looking for a low-budget comedy. Thankfully, I had a comedy written from 2001. I did a rewrite on it and I feel that it's still funny, so I sent it to him. A few weeks later, I hear from him but he hadn't read the script. He wanted a synopsis. So I knocked out a 6 page synopsis for the comedy

We talk a bit and he asks for other films I have completed. I told him about the suspense/thriller I had in mind for Halle Berry. He tells me he's shopping for financing on another script for her. I was shocked. He asked me to send him my script as well, with a synopsis. So I'm writing that synopsis now.

Overall, I feel like I'm moving in slow motion even though I'm avidly working hard on finishing the scripts. I'm in the middle of two scripts now. A horror and a drama.

I am hoping to have them finished by this 3rd quarter so I can start my autobiography and another action/drama in the 4th quarter.

I encourage you writers out there to be dedicated and committed to finishing your scripts.

One Week

This past week a Facebook friend sent me some money so I was able to stay in a motel for one week. It was great sleeping in a bed again. My ankle and legs were swollen. I really needed that week of sleeping properly. Some days I didn't even get out of the bed.

Starting today, I'm back sleeping in my car. I'm waiting to hear back from Target to see when I start work as holiday help. I sure wish they call soon. The sooner I start, the sooner I get a check.

What has surprised me is how many men feel that it's ok for women to struggle. There were times back in the day when a man would bend over backwards to help a woman in need. Those times are long gone now. The generation of my mom and dad have drastically changed society for the worst. They don't help nobody. They are so self-absorbed with getting what they can get and using folks for what they could get out of them and they passed it down to their children. I don't feel this way only because I'm going through struggles but I've felt this way for quite some time.

Our society is so ass backwards now that it's going to take a miracle from God to turn it around. I am happy that all of this is not making me become as heartless as they are.

PGA MEMBER

Yesterday I received my PGA membership packet in the mail. It was so surreal. It's hard to really enjoy good things when so many bad things are going on. But it was still exciting. I got a few DVD screenings in the packet. That was so cool. I don't know about other folks but I tend to eat more the broker I am. It's so weird. When I don't have to worry about buying food, I can fast for 3 days hahaha.

Sleeping in the car last night was a little better because I discovered the phone game, Word Mole and I played it til I fell asleep, so it made the night go by quicker. This has been the longest week ever.

Homeless Days

Last night was the 3rd night I slept in my car. One night I slept in one of my buddies music studios. As of October 9, 2010, I officially became homeless. I arrived back in Los Angeles at 8:45am. My dear sweet sister gave me $250.00 and my other family members gave me $60.00. After paying for a new postal box address and paying storage fees and miscellaneous/food items. I was down to little of nothing again with no funds coming in for a few weeks. I do get unemployment but I'm down to the last $19 check and hope and pray that they give me an extension.

The first night was weird. I slept on the street where I'd stayed in the motel, a familiar area. To climb into the back part of my hatchback to sleep through the night brought such a blank feeling. Here I am trying to turn my life around and one year after graduating college, I'm officially homeless with nowhere to go.

The second night I thought to myself, if this is what I have to do to try to make it work, then so be it. At least I have a vehicle that I can sleep in. I don't have to go to the shelters which have such bad reputations. I parked on a dark street near the college campus.

The third night I slept on the floor on a futon of a buddies music studio. It felt good to have a roof over my head even if it was a real apartment.

Last night was about the same as the first two nights. This time I parked on a street not too far from the motel, a side street that was more quiet. I'll probably go back there tonight.

My family all think that I'm staying back at the motel. I just can't tell them the truth because I don't want my middle sister worrying about me. She has done so much for the family already and it's not her job to take care of me. So I can't tell her. But she is going to be very, very upset with me. SO ALL OF THIS IS A SECRET. I choose to write so that I don't ever forget what I'm going through right now.

I get up and go to a 24 hour restaurant and use the restroom or go to the student union at the school campus. When it gets to the point where I need to shower, I'll get a one nighter somewhere to clean.

The rest of the day, I go to the library to work on writing my feature films. I'm so eager to get them completed. I still have a lot of work to do. I'm taking my time but be dedicated because I want them to be good.

My little niece called to talk to me yesterday. I felt so sad. She said, "You left me." It brought tears to my eyes. We had gotten closer when I went home in August. She is such a beautiful flower.

That's all for tonight. I have a job interview on Friday at Target. I sure hope I get the job. I'll let you know.

JUST GET OUT OF THE HOUSE

As I was trying to be lazy today, God pushed me out of bed. So I went and got some icecream before sitting down to log online. Then I saw the profile of this man's face and recognized him. I stopped him and it was a long time client/friend of mine. If I had not gotten out of the house, I would have missed a blessing.

My friend now writes for a show on Fox and has invited me down to the show to meet the directors once I told him I'd graduated and now direct. There was no hesitation in his thoughts. I was renewed once again in the kindness of people. To know that he wanted to help me after I had helped him in the past was refreshing and brought tears to my eyes.

You never know what God has in store for you but you must hear his voice and obey. Get out of the house and be around other people. God bless.

Change Is Coming

I sat and wrote some spec scripts for a particular show on Saturday. I got a good response on them. It really felt good to know that others could appreciate and see my talents. I'm so excited. I've always been a person of words. I love words. It saddens me that so many people totally ignore vocabulary words these days. Slang is cute at times but do you really think people speak that way in corporate America...nope.

I must come up with a way to help bring back WORDS...Vocabulary words. I use to sit and read the dictionary as a child to learn more words. I had a high school teacher who also loved words. We were best friends. I miss her much.

In conclusion, when we learn to change our words, our thoughts and dreams for better vocabulary words - change is coming. Many people believe you can speak things into existence. How can you do that if your words are not recognizable. Be blessed.

Love Yourself On This Valentine's Day!

I'm so glad that through all the pains and disappointments in my life, one thing has always remained true - I love myself. Don't get me wrong, I wish I was thinner right now and my hair was back at its normal length but I still overall love who I am as a person, a human being.

I'm sitting here writing sample specs to a show on this lover's day and I am loving what I'm writing lol. I'm so glad that I have many different avenues that I can take to reach my destiny. I thank God for that. All employers want their employees to be multi-taskers lol. So I'm happy that I can write, produce, direct, even edit. In this industry, it helps to be a person of many talents.

I encourage you to love yourself, just as God loves you. People treat you how you treat yourself. If you don't love you - how can you expect others to. Search your heart and soul to find what makes you love you.