Love Yourself On This Valentine's Day!

I'm so glad that through all the pains and disappointments in my life, one thing has always remained true - I love myself. Don't get me wrong, I wish I was thinner right now and my hair was back at its normal length but I still overall love who I am as a person, a human being.

I'm sitting here writing sample specs to a show on this lover's day and I am loving what I'm writing lol. I'm so glad that I have many different avenues that I can take to reach my destiny. I thank God for that. All employers want their employees to be multi-taskers lol. So I'm happy that I can write, produce, direct, even edit. In this industry, it helps to be a person of many talents.

I encourage you to love yourself, just as God loves you. People treat you how you treat yourself. If you don't love you - how can you expect others to. Search your heart and soul to find what makes you love you.

Just Keep Going

I had a rough few weeks but I know to just keep going. This economy is bad right now but I feel that God doesn't have a bad economy. I have the nerve to believe that I am supposed to be exempt from this lol. I do. I know deep in my heart that my prayers will be answered soon so I'm just gonna keep going. We all must keep going because one day we will laugh at this time in our lives.

I did more cold calls this week and sent emails. I actually got a call back on one of the projects but it was only her saying that she received my resume but they were all staffed up. I was so mad lol. I was thinking - I don't need a phone call for you to say you got my resume...only for you to say I'm hired. lol But it was nice of her to call I guess.

May God be with you all.

BE YOU!

After taking off my wig as of January 1, I must admit day 2 was terribly difficult. Now I'm here at day 5 I feel like me again. On facebook so many men bash women about weight, hair and money; but, one thing that stood out for me was the hair. I thought about how women love for our hair to look good and so do men. I mean my brother is in the barber shop more than me lol. But as for me, I don't like the shape of my head lol. So I feel like should length hair looks best on me. When my hair fell out due to a bad box perm I started wearing wigs because I was depressed and felt ugly.

This past week I realized that most men are hung up about women and fake hair. I realized that I have been single for a long time. Now in past couple of years, I've had men flirt with me at school and stuff but that was with my natural hair. Not long ago I went out with a male friend to the movies, I could tell that he was embarrassed by my wig. When I got home I realized how stupid I looked...really I did. Though some wigs looked better on me than others, this is why I vowed to be me in 2010.

Since my hair has had situations and I have to sport short hair - then so be it. I'm not hiding who I am anymore. We tend to like to cover up our errors and faults just to pretend to be someone else. Well this hair revelation has been a huge one for me. Truth of the matter is, I'm still cute hahahhaha well to me anyways. When I was in line at the 99 cents store after looking for a new calendar, this man and I was talking about how we didn't want to buy a calendar with a cat on it. Then he did the look... you know... the oh she's kinda cute look. I just smiled and laughed harder at myself outside because I didn't even have on my wig. So going without a wig is now easier than I thought. It's just more time and work on my natural hair...ugh lol.

Now all this ties in with being who you are at all times. We forget that God made us perfect in his image and when we complain about how we look, how we are shaped and other complaints of that nature - we are insulting God. So I'm not going to slap God in the face anymore with my nagging complaints. I'm going to be me and be happy. Are you?

Stay left-out!

I was thinking today in church as the pastor preached about folks being jealous and envious of others, of how I always use to feel left-out of the group. Just recently I realized why a certain group of folks who always left me out of activities, conversations and job referrals - even though I included them in mine - always omitted me. Well I discovered that these people are jealous and envious of my personality, skills and dedication to my destiny.

I found out when working with these groups of people that they don't know what they are doing on their particular jobs. They are faking their way through. I discovered that they all hung together. Then, it hit me. I would rather stay left-out of this group of people. I don't want to be associated with folks who don't know what they are doing. I don't want to be associated with people who are jealous and envious of others. I don't want to be associated with folks who are not honest and true.

So now I smile as I stay left-out of these folks. I like myself. I realize that God blocks us from things that we can't see or don't know what's bad for us. I thank God that I am strong enough to endure and move on toward my destiny and not feel left-out of his glory. Thank you God.