BE YOU!

After taking off my wig as of January 1, I must admit day 2 was terribly difficult. Now I'm here at day 5 I feel like me again. On facebook so many men bash women about weight, hair and money; but, one thing that stood out for me was the hair. I thought about how women love for our hair to look good and so do men. I mean my brother is in the barber shop more than me lol. But as for me, I don't like the shape of my head lol. So I feel like should length hair looks best on me. When my hair fell out due to a bad box perm I started wearing wigs because I was depressed and felt ugly.

This past week I realized that most men are hung up about women and fake hair. I realized that I have been single for a long time. Now in past couple of years, I've had men flirt with me at school and stuff but that was with my natural hair. Not long ago I went out with a male friend to the movies, I could tell that he was embarrassed by my wig. When I got home I realized how stupid I looked...really I did. Though some wigs looked better on me than others, this is why I vowed to be me in 2010.

Since my hair has had situations and I have to sport short hair - then so be it. I'm not hiding who I am anymore. We tend to like to cover up our errors and faults just to pretend to be someone else. Well this hair revelation has been a huge one for me. Truth of the matter is, I'm still cute hahahhaha well to me anyways. When I was in line at the 99 cents store after looking for a new calendar, this man and I was talking about how we didn't want to buy a calendar with a cat on it. Then he did the look... you know... the oh she's kinda cute look. I just smiled and laughed harder at myself outside because I didn't even have on my wig. So going without a wig is now easier than I thought. It's just more time and work on my natural hair...ugh lol.

Now all this ties in with being who you are at all times. We forget that God made us perfect in his image and when we complain about how we look, how we are shaped and other complaints of that nature - we are insulting God. So I'm not going to slap God in the face anymore with my nagging complaints. I'm going to be me and be happy. Are you?

Come Out of Denial

Now this topic just hit me today as I was talking to a friend of mine who called to wish me a Happy New Year. So many of us are in denial about many things in our lives and it's time for us to be honest with ourselves. While being an avid follower on Facebook, I often get emails from people saying that they are writers, producers, and actors who want to get information from me about the entertainment business or saying that they want to work with me on a project. But a vast majority of them don't have any experience or references for the title that they claim to be. There's an old saying stating if you don't do that particular thing everyday or I'll say at least every week, then you are not what you claimed to be. If you are a writer then you should have completed scripts, books, articles or something to verify that you are a writer. The same goes for producing, acting, directing and any other profession that you profess to be.

I must come out of denial about exercising. I remember a time when I never let anything get in the way of my exercising. I use to wake up at 4am and go jogging behind the police officers who use to jog that early in the morning down MLK blvd. I had gotten in shape and hadn't even realized it until one day walking back to the parking lot from church, West Angeles, my skirt fell down to my knees. All I could do was laugh. I was still wearing the larger sized clothes because in my mind I was still overweight. I went home and looked in the mirror which I hadn't done for a year and low and behold I was 35 pounds lighter. I went for my annual check up that week and the nurse who was looking at my chart, looked up at me and said, "You've lost 35 pounds!" I couldn't believe it. I was so proud of myself. I committed to letting nothing stop me from exercising a minimum of 45 mins. a day.

Now this 2nd day of 2010, I am coming out of denial about exercising, and writing. I am going to commit to 6 days a week of exercising and writing my scripts. I have realized that I cannot work long hours on my feet as a director with this excess fat on my body. It just can't be done. I can't claim to be a writer if I don't finish the 5 scripts that are embedded in my brain. They must be on paper for others to read. So I say to myself, daaaah lol.

To my readers, what do you need to come out of denial about. What lies have you convinced yourself to believe when you know if you were hearing the same story from someone else's lips - you'd know to be untrue.

Let's come out of denial in the name of Jesus!